Daddy’s Out Numbered

We took a walk in the woods today and Jimmy took some great photos!  Hope you enjoy!

I look into your eyes and I see how tired, worn down, and at the end of your rope you are. I’ve listened to your life story, having lived part of it with you, and I struggle with how you got to this place as well. It pains me to see you so defeated and lost. I can’t image what I would crumble into if I was going through what you are right now. I know you feel like giving up. I’m asking you not to. Anyone who knows you believes you can get through this. Even the powers working against you know you are not to be taken lightly. I know you’ve lost a part of who you are. I want to remind you who you are.

I, like many of our friends, have always thought of you as fearless, resilient, and strong. You are the friend who stands behind me even when I’m dead wrong and you know it. You lead with an open heart and trust even those who do not deserve your trust. You are the freest spirit I know. You are not judgmental, but open and kind to everyone. You are a wonderful mother. I watched you, tired, worn down, in desperate need of sleep and peace, play all day with your son and my children. There is no doubt that you love him and want him in your life. I watched your son jump into your arms and say… I love you. He loves you…don’t forget that and he needs you in his life. You are a fighter. You would never let any of your friends give up if they were in a similar situation.

I know you feel like you don’t have much left to keep going. I know you feel like you’ve lost yourself. I stood beside you at church on Sunday and heard your voice as you sang in the crowd. Friend you haven’t lost your voice. It’s as beautiful as it ever was. It was all I could do to not cry right there because hearing you sing sounded like hope to me. There is hope. Keep praying…He will answer in his own time…not ours. Your friends and family are here for you. Don’t give up.

The BHS dance team just hosted their annual dance camp.  Even though she’s really too young, they let Dylan participate and she loved it!  Here’s a big thanks to the BHS dance team members!  She hasn’t stopped talking about it.  You know I took a video… are you crazy???  Here she is!

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It’s hard to believe, but Ava has turned 2!  We had a little party this weekend with Bam and Aunt Nancy.  The girls always love it when they come to visit.  Here’s some photos from the big day!

Recently someone pointed out to me that I never took a stance on a previous post about staying in contact with an ex.  I explained that I was merely providing a forum for other people to express their opinions and that I certainly wouldn’t want to sway opinions by stating my own. 

However, I don’t want to appear cowardly by not sharing my stance on the matter  so here goes…

I can only speak for myself.  Only I know and understand my past relationships and how they affected me and how that person makes me feel now.  So to say that it’s okay or not okay to stay in contact with an ex is too blanket of a statement.  I can honestly stay in contact with some people and it’s no big deal.  Staying in contact with others isn’t that simple.  I’m sure it’s that way with most people. 

Everyone is different so when I hear someone say ‘I still talk to my ex and my wife/husband doesn’t like it, but it’s harmless,’-  I guess it could be harmless.  However I firmly believe that if the most important person in your life is your significant other, then if communicating with an ex bothers them, shouldn’t you stop?  Does the ex mean more to you than your significant other and if so, something’s up. 

So, do I stay in contact with some of my ex’s?  A couple, but nothing ongoing.   I don’t keep it a secret from my husband and if he had a problem with someone I’d stop communicating.

Happy 2nd birthday to our beautiful baby girl Ava!

 I’ll post photos after all the festivities are over. 

Everytime this song comes on the radio Dylan says, “turn it up loud mommy!”  This morning I caught her singing along… 

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